Giving up

OK ~ so we are having takeaway tonight.

Why? Because. Yes there is food in the pantry, yes the fridge holds the makings of a meal, yes we have stuff in the freezer. However, every now and then, that urge to get something made by another with the lack of need to wash up after is good for the spirit.

I know, we know ~ this is not the way to go. We're not talking Pizza Hut or Domino's because those pizza's are so 'mechanical' - 13 pieces of pineapple, 25gm of bbq sauce, one sachet of pre-cooked chicken - we are going to get them from our local pizzeria, keep the local businesses trading and have the 3-for-$21-and-soft drink deal. 

So, we will be spending. It's almost ridiculous spending the same amount we could use over a week on one meal but pffft ~ let's just call it the weakness of being human and having desires. It's not like $400 for a pair of shoes, or more on a handbag or $100 on gamer games. 

Yes - it's been a difficult week and still waiting for a final pay to hear 'something' still needs checking to verify I've done what I've charged for. August to December really is not good enough after all the copying, calling and postage paid to get this sorted. So not happy.  Wrong week/month to give up me smokes!

Still - nothing (aside from the pizza) spent today.  Mowed before the storms, weeded a little, collected the eggs and tidied up the lounge room. That'll do :D

You were always welcome

You always were there

I thought that I needed you

With me everywhere

But ultimately you only

Ever brought me down

You used all my money

Made my life unsound

Oh to throw you out, to give you away

I like you around me, I want you to stay

But you are the poison bringing me down

I feel so much better when you're not around

Since I can remember

You've been here with me

Inside me, beside you

It's time to break free

There's memories you've taken

So false, they are yours

When the cloud haze fades

They're the ones to ignore

So please don't come knocking

Back at my door

No calls on the mobile

I want you no more

As much as I love you

And wish we could play

You're all too controlling

Far away you must stay

Actually thrown you out, I gave you away

Can't have you around me, still others can stay

Found you were the poison, pushed me to the ground

I feel so much better when you're not around

Breathing the air

Clean, fresh and true

No more of the smoke screen

Set up by you

Singing a new song

Comes up from the heart

While I still want you

I've made a new start